Last night I ate a full pint of Ben & Jerry's ice cream.
Today, I went to go for a run to the grocery store, and walked only after a few blocks.
I know, I have a legitimate reason for having a hard time with running. I have been having bad pain in my knee and am waiting for the "Health Coach" at work to get back to me with orthopedic recommendations. However, I don't need to have gone off the deep end with eating poorly. But that is exactly what I have done.
Since the beginning of February I have been working to build my endurance with running by doing a downloaded program that was recommended to me called "Couch to 5K". It has been AWESOME. For the first time in life, I have been enjoying working out and enjoying challenging myself. Yes, I always did sports but I was always mediocre at them. Probably because I didn't have that drive to push myself to the limits physically. I swam in high school because I loved the water (still do!) and loved the physical exercise and loved the feeling of having a good work out in the pool. But, I still didn't push myself past the points that I felt comfortable at. I have had to do that with my recent attempts to "become a runner" as I like to say.
In the process of working on becoming a better runner, I have developed, what I think, is a really healthy attitude around food. I found myself eating healthier, not because I thought it would make me lose weight, but because I wanted to fuel my body the best way possible for my workouts. I wasn't stressing over everything I put in my mouth because I knew that I was working my body hard. I didn't really lose any weight (maybe 5 lbs or so) but I started to not really be concerned with that. I FELT good.
But now I am not running. And although it has been just over a week, this past week has been pretty hard on me. I just don't feel as good about myself and don't have as much motivation to eat healthy. I'm not sure what to do to get me out of this fitness funk. I need to dig deep and find something to pull myself back onto the wagon.
And I'll just keep my fingers crossed that I can get to the doctor soon and learn what is going on with my knee.
Sorry for the rant! I want to get back to writing here and will be hopefully back soon. This entry was a bit like therapy for me... so thanks for listening.
Sometimes your body needs a little break. Get back into the swing of things next week! :)
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